So today I was cleaning my fridge (something I have been meaning to do for a while) and listening to one of the greatest bands in the world Fleetwood Mac. With many thoughts running laps in my head.
Most of my thoughts were about the past.
Why? Why am I doing this to myself?
I don’t really have an answer.
However, I may have a theory. To better myself.
Yes, I have made mistakes in the past (who hasn’t) have I learned from them? YES
In hindsight is probably the best term. In hindsight I learned I was naive and was a follower. My big mistake from this, I was trying to be someone else.
I was hiding the fact that I was secretly dancing to cheesy 90s music. I was hiding my insecurities (which I will talk about when I am ready). I was masking myself.
However, now I make it no secret. I have seen Steps 4 times. Even though I get the mick taken out of me, I don’t care! I am proud of this little yet weird accomplishment. I don’t care that I remember most of the dance moves. I am proud of who I am. I don’t want to hide who I am anymore. I am not ashamed. I am not scared.
I want to teach my son this. I want him to be proud of himself. I want him to feel free to be himself.
Hiding who you are is hard. What I am trying to say is. Be who you are. Don’t care what people say.
In the words of Fleetwood Mac “you can go your own way”.
Shining blue eyes 