That you are in charge of a little human. A human that relies on you for everything. You feel a huge wave of responsibility of caring and bringing them up in this scary and also crazy world. You worry about things, your parents wouldn’t have been worried about 20 years ago!
Is it just me Or is it a pressure we have put on ourselves? If this sounds like you then please, feel free to PM me as personally I think it is good that parents talk to each other about how we are getting on, in this new world of parenting. I have met mums and we talk to each other and give each other reassurance and encouragement. It is great talking to them who understand what I am are going through. If it wasn’t for them then I would be even more tough on myself!
My son is now 1 and let’s just say I am feeling more responsibility now! Partly, cause he is now developing his character of an adventurous, inquisitive and mischievous little boy.
It is a delight watching his personality grow but I now worry more than ever! My son likes to walk a lot even without assistance but, I worry, what if he falls badly and hurts his head or breaks something. My heart immediately goes into my mouth and I feel it beating heavily until, my husband or myself consoles him. It is the worst feeling as I feel bad that I let him walk by himself. I immediately feel a wave of guilt. He will cry and I will sometimes join him and cry too as I can see how much it hurts him. It is so horrible watching your child cry and you know you could have prevented it from happening. I just wish I could put some kind of bubble around him so he can simply bounce up when he falls. But alas, I can’t .
This guilt continues throughout my life. I felt a huge amount of guilt today when I went with him to get his jags and he cried so much and I consoled him. I know that some people don’t agree with immunisations but it is my choice and I want to protect him. I wanted to protect him at all costs, even though he cried. It made me feel bad and made me feel so much more guilt that I contributed to making him more upset. So to make it up to him I gave him more hugs and kisses.
However, this doesn’t take away any of my guilt. Did I do the right thing? Should I have said no?
It is the worst feeling.
Having a little human is the best. If someone told me 5 years ago I would have a family, I would begin laughing and possibly spitting out a drink. However, I love my family despite the huge responsibility and worries that come my way.
I can be a very worried and anxious person. I know a lot of people say don’t worry but it is hard for me to stop worrying.
I worry a lot about my son. I worry about him reaching his milestones, I worry about me doing the right thing for him. It all builds up! I feel so responsible for his actions and well being and sometimes it can be too much and I admit it I cry. Sometimes for an unknown reason or sometimes because of a certain little dragon in a Christmas advert!
Parenting can be so overwhelming jammed pack with a mixture of emotions. Sometimes you can have good days and other days can be tough. It’s then when I wish I don’t feel so much pressure and responsibility and, I just want to snuggle with my son on a sofa, with no cares in the world.
Don’t get me wrong I love being a mum but I hate being a blubbery mess!
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